Tech ni colour

Nothing beats a night out with all 'em girls! Would you like some pink dumplings? Went atop Oc again just for the spectacular view. Its funny cause this time i didn't feel like something was missing, i didn't feel like i had no one to share the night's magnificence with. My friends fill the empty slots with so much comfort and love. They're such a hay stack of fun! Who needs to be cuddled in front of a campfire when you're roasting marshmellows and speaking code with only the bestest friends in the world? Love has made me bitter, not. Love is important but what would you be without friendship?

Us girls had us such good chat over dessert accompanied by uncountable photos which i am dying resizing them to upload but thank god i have picasa haha. I had such a great time. Dinner was rewarding, supper was salted egg crabs we couldn't help but kill our diets and devour! My Tuesday was good. So, how was yours?

pits or fits?

(eliastahan)









(Nirrimi Joy Hakanson)

Sup. I still alive. Fret not, i haven't fallen off a cliff or got swarmed by a school of sharks. Again, i have no photos. I changed my skin anyway haha. I have no idea why my life is in such a critical state now. Everything keeps running towards me head first in all directions. As if i don't have enough problems on one hand, everyone else is falling apart too and i hate seeing people around me fall apart. I ignore my problems so often when it comes back for me, i feel like i'm losing, sliding down a spiral so steep i almost fall off the sides.

I'm grateful i have such amazing friends really.
ANYWAY. On a good note, my parents might be coming back today! Its been a month since i last saw them, i hope they drive both cars back this time so my brother can take me out for supper like, every night! I've been trying to diet as much as i can, i just like how 50 sounds though its impossible to be 50 cause i wouldn't have assets anymore! Not that i have a lot to offer but a little is better off than absolutely nothing isn't it? I have to clean up before my parents get back which i have been holding off for a couple of days now. My house has become a jungle, not really the physical change but more of audible. My brother has a pet skink and he bought crickets to feed it, they cannot stop cricking 26/9! Everytime i hear them, i look around to see if any of them have escaped which is quite ridiculous actually considering they're keep in an almost air tight container (i hope) . They make me so cautious.

My neighbour has been such an angel, she knows how we don't have a maid anymore and she is thinking of hiring one to share with us! I am so gonna talk my mom into hiring her part time to help spiff the house clean. Whatever i know i'm so lazy. I like cleaning but it requires a mood to do it! At least for me. I don't mind cleaning up my own messes but just not my brother's.

Also this has been irking me since last friday. Its been such a long time since someone has smiled at me and i literally felt like i was melting! To be honest, it felt really juvenile but i like! I sound so bimbotic but OMGOMGZ. The mystery boy is so adorable! Out of 3000 people and umteen lessons, i've only seen him once. I pray that luck's on my side!

I can't believe i'm listening to pitbull.
Hahaha its just so catchy! Someone slap me.

and when i see you, i really see you upside down

A couple of pictures collected over the days.
I am so mesmerized by monotones.















I hate the fact that its so hard to trust you. The fact that you were never honest, the fact that i actually thought i knew you. The fact that if anyone said anything, without hesitation i'd point my gun at you. You're reserved, you don't say anything to anyone. You think its okay to keep things to yourself. Well you can if you're dating yourself that is. You ruin all ties you have with everyone and the least you could do i fix them. If you don't need anyone of us, just walk away, you won't be worth keeping then.

If you ever read this, i'm trying my best to see the greater good in you so please, don't disappoint me. If you haven't already woken up from you're long slumber, nows the time to actually change and do something to redeem yourself. All the times i was there before obviously didn't mean anything to you, everything i've ever strained myself to do has come to an utmost failure. Maybe i'm a tiny fragment in your life you're so accustomed to switching would be too laborious. I just can't see the bad in someone, they always say there's some good left. That of which i am starting to doubt, alot. Its been a month and trusting you i have to admit has gotten slightly easier. I try to take your word for everything because after all, i am trying to us a shot. You did something so downright stupid it eliminated friendships people would die to have. You're unappreciative, all you care about is yourself. Up to this moment, whatever you've done overshadows every single thing you've ever said and done for me. You fight everything with the rarional you. Life isn't like that. I know i have no ground to judge on but i surely know that life's a milkshake. I'm not trying to make you a priest, shit no, i just want you to be someone everyone feels trustworthy with. I don't want to feel like rambo everytime i feel you're doing something behind my back. I am gonna sound so immensely high of myself but i've always stood by you. Through all bad and good. Maybe you've forgotten, its time you do something to make yourself remember everything everyone has ever done for you. I'm sorry if this hurts.
Stop disappointing yourself.
Stop disappointing everyone.
Stop disappointing me.
Things may not work out for us. At the very least, i'd like to know that i did date someone with a heart.

consolation

"Just steal her car and go already!"

I may sound like a 15 a year old here but surely, no one loves copycats. I know i'm clearly not a fan and i get all anal about them. Especially if they're ripping me off. Its amazing how a general amount of kids try to be place themselves in a class that hardly exisits, to be above everyone else. Don't go on ranting about some douche who copied you when you merely did the same thing to me. That's one reason why i keep changing my layout so often cause i simply can't stand the sight of having the same layout or rather extremely similar layout to anyone else. My blog is a reflection of who i am and i don't suppose we're anything alike. I dislike blog hopping and landing on a blog whom i know belongs to a skinner and sit back, watch myself get ripped. I know i can't do anything about 'em copycats but i just thought i'd blog about something different for a change plus it came back for me today. And besides, don't copycats get you all fuzzy and warm inside? People say i should be flattered. I'm trying if that's any consolation haha.

Minidate

Thought i'd do a small update before i leave for dinner. I haven't really been using my dslr lately, so i don't have really have pictures!








Have you ever been so seflish just because you wanted to save yourself? So selfish you don't listen to anyone else other than yourself. But you soon dwell in your thoughts and realise that by being selfish, you're blindsighted by your own opinions. Then you try to be fair by empathising. Only to realise that what difference would it make? Selfish or not, you're still in dilemma.

I hate being in dilemmas. They're the worst places to be. I know my posts are so confusing and i think no one can quite comprehend but i just need to rant..somewhere haha. I'm never gonna pen everything down in details cause i hate waring my heart on my sleeve, so here's me half fucking all you readers. I'm sorry. I feel so exhausted always having to see the good in people only to get betrayed or crushed. Still i go on doing it, that's just me. I wonder how to save myself? You may think i'm a push over, whatever i may be deemed to you as, you're not half as close so feel free to judge. I hate how in the end everything's in the palm of my hand, it pressures me to make decisions i never want to face.
Okay i'll try not to write sappy shit anymore.
I think this blog needs a little change, layout wise. Does it?
I get so fickle when it comes to layouts!

Passenger seat

I would have to say that my favourite band of all time is Death Cab For Cutie.
They write such good songs.


I roll the window down
And then begin to breathe in
The darkest country road
And the strong scent of evergreen
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home.

Then looking upwards
I strain my eyes and try
To tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home.

"do they collide?"
I ask and you smile.
With my feet on the dash
The world doesn't matter.

When you feel embarrassed then i'll be your pride
When you need directions then i'll be the guide
For all time.
For all time.

Gross

I'm having one of those days where you get up in the morning and every single flaw seems overly magnified. My eyes feel so puffy and sore, one ridiculously larger than the other, my face looks disoriented, and my hair is making me peeved. I hate days like these, they start out alright but always end up horrible. I'm going to sweep everything back and try to make my day better.

I'll update tonight when i get back.
Anyway if you have problems viewing this layout cause the formspring box covers my entries a little, my screen resolution is 1280px by 800px. hope that helps!

Back! shall edit my post from here. Everyday's flying by so quick, i can't believe April is just swooping by. I'm starting to think the pictures on my blog are a little too big so i'm gonna resize them again. Today wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. Driving was exceptionally fun, my instructor really did open up to having a proper conversation. The 2 hours spent in the car was less boring than usual plus i couldn't stop laughing i almost released my grip on the steering wheel a couple of times!.

“Trust yourself. You know more than you think you do.”
I sincerely hope that's true.



Dinner!


Yummmmm stingray!


I just thought the colour cups were cute haha.


Geraldine's apple crumble with apple-cinnamon ice cream!


Vinna's mudpie!


Syl's 6cs!

My dessert was the ugliest but tasted real good! Just a scoop of ice cream on a waffled drench with warm caramel.

weekend

My saturday and sunday was well spent! Had so much fun and i was on a major food spree! Tomorrow's Monday and its all back to reality for us. I really have to get on with studying for my final theory cause my trial test is later in the afternoon and i'm not even done with the book yet. Couldn't help inch away to blog! Had bakerzin yesterday, the caramel cheesecake is super delish! Not forgetting the brownie mousse. Collected my specs and caught how to train a dragon, such an adorable show although they make dragons look like scaley puppies with wings haha. Had lunch at thai express and dinner at nebo. I am so in love with the chunky chicken!

Alright just felt like updating with these pictures, hope you guys like the changes to my blogskin. Needed something a little different. Below the archives is the link back to entries! Is it a little too messy? Tell me what you think!


caramel cheez!


brownie mousse.





really yummy chunky chicken with cheesy spaghetti upclose!




Tom yam with fish and glass noodles.


soft shell crab deep fried with chopped garlic!




That was Jarl's idea! I know my specs look a little crooked, gotta get them fixed!








Doing a little camwhoring before the movie. My weekend was superb! How was yours?

attract-u-ation

"No matter what your heartache may be, laughing helps you forget it for even if it is just for a few seconds."

It is so true how you come to this world as a whole and you give someone your heart. They don't ask for it but you let them right in your front door and they change everything. All they really had to do was take you out for a movie, maybe a kiss or a hug and you throw him the keys. When they leave, everything is left the way he left it. In time you rearrange everything back to how it used to be then someone else walks in. A house made of bricks, with the strongest foundation with layers of cement, yet we fall apart.
Some people say that love is over rated, its a bag of pointless junk.
Well, they're obviously living in tents. No keys and with no proper foundation.